Twigs and Leaves

Something about the rain. Just something about it's scent, and the way the puddles it creates echo through my room. I've wanted to write something for a few weeks now, something worth reading again. I've saved about four drafts, but nothing I really feel is worth anything. Something about the rain makes me more, not technically inspired, but capable of writing. As the water droplets flow from sky to roof to road to beneath the soil, i'm able to better flow and run the the thoughts in my head. The leaves and twigs circulating my fuck up are kind of washed and pushed closer to the sewer when it rains. I enjoy writing, and writing words that impact people, rain acts as one of my catalyst for me to be able to do that better. 

I don't know, just thoughts and thoughts.

What They Preach Is Merely Fiction

Music has started to hit me hard again. I suppose hard isn't the best choice of words, deep would be more accurate I think? For a while I could listen to music and it wouldn't effect me like it used to, but it's begginging to again. I'm able to get lost in a song the way I was able to. I don't know if I like this happening or not, no... I do know.

Please, don't expect much from me anymore.

Blur, Loosen, Wander, Float, Shut

I really do not know why that song below stabilizes me to the point that it does. It lyrically has nothing to do with my life or past, except maybe the first line, and I can't personally relate to it. But it can calm me more then any other song in my library of close to five thousand. Just listening to it so loud that it is literally all I can hear and completely shutting out the world, helps me in some way? I zone and that song is really the only one that can completely consume my entire mind and body, basically one hundred percent of the time. It's just a beautiful song, and I get lost among it. Thank you Joscelyn, for exposing me to it last year, you don't know how much it has done for me in that year, from last summer to the start of school and so on. I feel pretty pathetic for giving this four minute song so much credit and power, but I need to start accepting the fact that I am a pretty pathetic person. I'd post a lyric to finish this, but like I said, it's not the lyrics, it's the sound and consumption. Goodbye.

When There's Nothing Left To Burn,

"You Have To 

Set Yourself On Fire"

-Stars